My critical voice says, “I can’t believe you acted like such a slut,” and “You want to make it out like you are some kind of victim, but you went along with it, so don’t pretend to be so innocent…”
E says, “You were robbed. You were robbed of your innocence, so you didn’t get to have that incredible, innocent discovery of what your body could do in a loving, consensual, respectful relationship.”
She says, “You were robbed of the chance to develop your voice, to learn that you could make choices and speak up for yourself.”
I’m tired and a bit discouraged tonight, so I will go to bed and try to think gently about the girl who in some ways was very innocent and needed some guidance and protection that she didn’t get. Not getting those things–that wasn’t her fault.
CREDIT: Photo by Alex Markovich
Sage Burning 
SHE’S RIGHT, E IS RIGHT, YOU WERE ROBBED. AND I’M SO SORRY. THOSE ASSHOLES WHO ABUSED YOU I’D LOVE TO KILL THEM. I’D LOVE TO KILL ALL OUR ABUSERS. EVERY LAST ONE OF THEM. LOVE, LIZ XX
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Wow, Liz, I hear your rage! I’m glad you are expressing it. That’s hard for me to do.
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It’s not hard for me to express anger and rage but it’s hard for me not to react impulsively, then I get us into trouble. I’m working on trying to feel my feelings properly without reacting first
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Take good care ❤
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Thanks. I am trying!
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The feeling of guilt that goes with feeling like you were complicit is so hard to get rid of. I feel very sorry for the child that believed that and I hope you will one day really, truly believe that it was never true.
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I don’t know about you but when I’m in danger I freeze. Because fighting back means running the risk of encountering more resistance and more harm. That’s a safety mechanism, and it’s not the same thing as “letting something happen”.
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