It’s a sneak. It pretends to retreat, giving you a bit of a reprieve. You take a deeper breath. You begin to make plans. Maybe you tell people you are feeling better. And then it creeps back to you, crawling into your ear and taking your thoughts in a dark direction. You realize your first thoughts upon waking focus on ways to hurt yourself. Not again, you think.
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Sage Burning 
I hope you get some real relief soon!
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Me too!
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There is such truth to this. And it’s weird because while making plans I’m usually wondering why I haven’t done these things sooner and it all seems so easy at the time.
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It’s a masterful tactician, yet another thing to remind you that you are constantly at war…..
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So true. Ugh. Cherish the up times.
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I do, I really do, even the small good moments in a challenging day.
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May you find strength and courage to find your way through remembering always that this too shall pass.
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It’s true, of course. Though the little sneak whispers to me, “I always come back again…”
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Yes i completely understand. When we are feeling low it’s hard to believe that things will be ok. The feelings take over and the hardest thing is to seperate ourselves from it.
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Oh, god yes. That is exactly what it is like. UGH.
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Too true.
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